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i tried to write a lil cathartic n simple thing but a midi routing error chewed it up and scattered it around and made something unexpectedly pretty :3 this is strangely appropriate given the things time and fate have brought me in the past couple of months. new and deep loves were enshrined in my heart as i suffered multiple psychotic episodes and a resultant derealization that has pulled on the threads that weave me into being in this world. everything i am, all that i remember, is what is in front of me in any given moment. something deeply and viscerally novel about me has been laid to rest, and we can only pick up the things left behind and try to nurture the new things growing from the remains, and learn from these experiences. psychosis is a culturally dependent thing in certain cases: depending on who you're surrounded by or what kind of culture you're in, saying or experiencing or believing things like "decidua was a symbiotic outer god who repaired my life in return for living a human experience in my body, and is now sleeping in the back of my mind" will either get you institutionalized/medicated, or it will deepen the understanding those around you have of you. it isn't always harmful, even if it's difficult. regardless of if it was borne of psychosis, plurality, recovered trauma, or all of them woven together, it's been a beautiful and heartbreaking experience to be broken down and made new so so so many times in such a short period. but that is everything decidua embodied, and why we'll continue to use its name even if it's now sleeping; decidua, from the latin decido, "to fall down or off". to exist in this body, in this mind, in this life, with this trauma, is to be a thing constantly reborn, deciduous and chaotic with deep roots, always casting off old things to become a newly healed and born being with its own unique limerent shimmer. this is plurality; this is decidua; this is me.I Tried To Write A Sound Effects Free Download. Sound Effects Downloader To Help You Download The Highest Quality I Tried To Write A Sound Effects Free Download For TikTok Videos. You Just Search Sound Effects And Download.