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I haven’t really been updating my family. Not through calls, not even short messages. Not because I don’t love them, but because talking to them always ends the same way. Since first year, I’ve been hearing it: ‘Wala kay tuon-tuon.’ ‘Mag-shift na lang ka.’ ‘Di jud ni para nimo.’ Now I’m in third year… second semester. My last academic semester before internship. That’s seven straight semesters. And the doubts still haven’t stopped. They never really approved of this course. Actually, they never approved of anything I listed. All my choices were either dismissed or questioned. They say they support me— and I appreciate the financial help, I do— but it’s hard to feel close to people who’ve already decided you’re not going to make it. I’ve had terrible grades. Like 39 out of 100. 42. 43. Most people would think that’s it. Most of my batchmates probably wonder, ‘How is this person still here?’ And honestly, I wonder too. But somehow—I passed. Not always proud, not always clean. But I’m still here. And they never said, ‘I’m proud of you.’ Never even just… acknowledged that I made it through. My dad brushes it off. My sister questions it. ‘How did you even pass that?’ Like I cheated life or something. I don’t really call anymore. Because anytime I try to open up, it’s met with: ‘You didn’t try hard enough.’ ‘It’s your fault for not giving more.’ And I start doubting myself again. Maybe I didn’t give enough. Maybe I never will. But today… something small happened. I accidentally ripped part of my uniform. So I wore my lab coat on the way home and rode a taxi. And my teacher saw me and said— ‘Maybe it’s a sign. You won’t need that old uniform anymore. Internship’s in four weeks.’ I laughed. But inside I just… paused. That hit me harder than expected. Because I realized— I made it. Somehow, I’m here. So I thought, maybe today’s the day. I’ll call my aunt. Tell her something small. That I’m okay. That I’m trying. But the moment the call started, it was the same. ‘Sign na ni. Mag shift na lang.’ ‘Di man ka seryoso. Kita man mi nimo.’ ‘Ang Ginoo ray nakakita sa imong ambisyon.’ They don’t even realize how heavy that hits. Because all I wanted… was peace. Not praise. Just peace. And look—I’m not a good person. I’ve made mistakes. Hurt people. Messed up in ways I don’t always talk about. So this isn’t a pity party. I don’t want to play the victim. I just want to tell the truth. I’ve never been the star student. I’m way behind everyone else. But I’m still here. Still showing up. Still fighting to make it through. I appreciate the money. The roof over my head. But emotional support? That’s something I had to learn to live without. And because of that, I’ve learned to keep my distance. Not because I’m ungrateful, but because I had to protect what little belief I had left in myself. I’m not asking to be celebrated. I’m just asking… to be allowed to breathe. To survive this path I chose, without being reminded every day that I wasn’t their first choice. Maybe I’m not meant to be here. But I’m already here. And I’m going to finish this— even if it’s just for me.I Haven’t Really Been Updating Sound Effects Free Download. Sound Effects Downloader To Help You Download The Highest Quality I Haven’t Really Been Updating Sound Effects Free Download For TikTok Videos. You Just Search Sound Effects And Download.